Counting seconds

Time ticks by, seconds by seconds, by the time you figure it out, it's been day and still time doesn't go backway, my life still move on... Did i move on or just my body moving... Life wasn't easy... Trying to find things to do... Trying to numb my brain...

Numb was a good word, getting numb is the best thing in the world... Feel no pain, feel no thing, feel nothing at all...

My body is tired, my mind is tired, my soul is tired... God please show your miracle, if this is one time i wanted to see a miracle, it's now... Not then, not before, but just now...

Been into a lot of music to settle my mood lately... Never heard a song so deep before... Never set my mind in such a trance state when i am sober before... Wanna give it up to new genre... Never accept so many of new things... Trying to accept changes in life...

I hope nothings changes... Never change, i dun like adapting to new things... Makes me feel strange, makes me feel uncomfortable, makes me different... Makes me a total stranger...

I don't want to be the stranger in the city, i don't want to be a stranger in my mind....

God make things never change, not like the way i hated it...

Nothing changes

This is my third entry of blog... I notice that i am not the only one suffering here... I knew a guy from i think US or dunno where is having the same problems as i do... I knew a few person who also have times that they dun appreciate the things they have...

Is it time we should have sit down and think again... Think closely and think slowly... Is it what we are chasing worth our sacrifice... Our time, our live, our life, our pain... Does the person you're chasing even know your sacrifices, your pain... Or does that person just don't even care...

Maybe we're just all the same... We know it for good and we know that it's not the answer we want... We're just going to do the same thing... Deny it... Coz that just give us hope to continue our life...

I woke up this morning with the best dream of my life... How i wish it was true... How i wish i could just continue sleeping down... Been quite normal this few days... No extra emo... Maybe i'm numb...

I am numb to a point that i can't think well... I can't even blog right... Time is doing it's job...

I read this in my fren's nick... This is how it goes... It is written in mandarin and i try to translate it... Some people say time will do it's job and bring the pain away, it doesn't bring the pain away, it'll only get you use to it, getting use to the pain... This is how the nick wrote, i more or less think it was right... She also said something else, she'll appreciate what she have now, we can't control what has happen, but we can appreciate the love we have now...

I am kinda jealous with some people, i am kinda sad for some others too... If miracle could have happen, if i could have genie's three wishes, i would only wish for only thing... Is everything could be wonderful again... Ozone heals itself, the arctic ice will never melt, no meteorite is gonna struck earth, nuclear warhead are all dead, no more terrorism, no more war, no more thin model, johnny cash was alive, river phoenix didn't got overdose, bali was not bomb, 911 was just a prank call, everything is fine, Leslie Cheung is alive, love will be in the air and i am still around....

How i wish everything is wonderful now...